#cannabis – Cara Carozza

Living Maya Time – Reflections on Tz’ikin

Tz’ikin took me on a journey these past thirteen days. The Eagle (Red Tailed Hawk in my neck of the woods) gifted me with glimpses of the vision of Community that I have held for many moons. I was shown what I had seeded and tended with devotion. My sprouts were clearly evident. Deep satisfaction is finding a permanent home within my body and my spirit. I haven’t quite landed yet, but I have the runway in sight and it’s going to be a smooth landing.

I’ve been Beta testing an app that two dear friends and fellow students of Maya Cosmology have developed together. My Q’ij (@my.qij) is Ancient yet Futuristic in the words of its creators. It’s a magical tool for learning and reflection. It’s become my container for journaling each day and it’s given me an elevated perspective. I could scarcely believe all that had held my attention this trecena when I reviewed all the entries that I had recorded. Flying high in the sky, we have the complete picture. The entire vision of possibilities laid out before us.

Tz’ikin also showed me prosperity in all it’s varied forms. The freedom to shuttle my mother and step-father to his most recent surgery. The willingness of our crew to finish our cabin project despite numerous changes and delays. The opportunity to submit my manuscript to a number of small and independent publishers even though I don’t have an agent. The free card deck samples that my printer sent me before asking for any money. All of this and my first grand baby on the way. Life is full in a way I never expected it to be at this stage of my life. Tz’ikin showed me that there is always a new horizon. A new dream and expanded possibilities.

Tomorrow welcomes the fertile energies of Q’anil. Q’anil will ask us to tend the sprouts that most serve our spiritual growth over the next thirteen-day cycle. Careful and conscious tending is what will be asked of us. Q’anil will also offer us time to enjoy what we’ve already created as well. I’m looking forward to customizing my book proposal for each of the independent publishers I’ve identified and planning a baby blessing ceremony with my future daughter in law. My husband will be harvesting the cannabis and hemp plants in our garden in the coming days as well. Worthy and pleasurable endeavors to channel Q’anils’ ripening energy into.

May you enjoy getting your hands into the dirt of your life.

Lovingly,

Cara

Living Maya Time – The Trecena of E’

Kawoq ushered in a chorus of women that I have planted seeds of relationship with over the past few years. They all showed up eager to be watered. It should not have been such a surprise. The energy of the midwife and the rainstorm had been my conductor. She eased me into my labor with a quiet meditation retreat with my friend Cathryn. A once-a-year date to spend the weekend together doing something creatively empowering. It left plenty of time for leisurely meals and lots of conversation. Nice and easy.

The contractions got my attention when I got a call from my new sister, Maat. “I got my dispensary license! Remember you told me when we were in the Dominican Republic that you would take care of the taxes, right?” I did, but had forgotten. She would be my first cannabis client. Family and in an aligned business. I really couldn’t say no, especially after what my family had been through. Kawoq encouraged me to breathe. You got this she said. You’ve studied the law. You’re the best person for this work. She is so wise.

Transition came with a request from a client I had not worked for in a while. A delicate project, closing a family business and preparing the final tax returns. But also, something else. “I’ve seen the ceremonies you make for yourself online and I want you to create one for me and my husband for our anniversary.” Ashley is an artist. She ran for the City Council of Carmel – by – the -Sea and I was her campaign treasurer. We connected immediately. I got paid to learn a ton and collect money while drinking wine and eating cheese at all of her fund-raising events. It didn’t even feel like work.

I was surprised, but completely intrigued by her request. Almost immediately, I got a case of imposter syndrome. Am I qualified to create a Mayan’ish fire ceremony for someone else? I decided to just start and see what took form. Checking their anniversary date, I saw that it was today, 1 E’. Time to push.

E’ is the Nawal of the road, the journey and the new path. It nurtures and expands the new life birthed during the Kawoq trecena. Ideal energy for a ceremony to initiate a new financial direction. This was all I needed to fuel my creativity. Everything I needed was there. I didn’t need to buy anything. I just needed to allow the process to happen. And I had SOOO MUCH fun doing it! Equally fun was delivering it to her. She had gifted me one of her sculptures after the campaign. Now I was able to reciprocate.

A new path is emerging. One where my spiritual practices intersect with my business services. Fertile ground for more of my authentic self to emerge. I am feeling an exhilarating excitement building. The energies of this Trecena will also be supporting my journey to San Diego. My husband and I are visiting our daughter and one of our sons. I’m so excited to squeeze them both. Travel is auspicious for the next couple of weeks. Inward journeys are also supported. I’m starting one of those too. A 21 day cacao immersion. Can’t wait to meet Madame Cacao more intimately.

Bon voyage on your journey, I hope it surprises and delights you.

Cara xoxo

Cultivating Presence in the Chaos

Hello Friends,

It’s been a minute. How are you doing? Truthfully, I have not been doing so well this past month. I am struggling to stay present and grounded. It’s felt like I am in the spin cycle of my washing machine.

My Dad’s health has taken a turn for the worse. His cancer is back and he is on life support. We have said goodbye four times now. I am clinging to a life raft of hope, but my grief threatens to breach the surface each time there is a new update. I now understand how cruel this disease can be, how the suffering expands and diffuses from the victim into the family.

My grief manifested in my lower back. I woke up and I could barely move without excruciating pain. Spirit was sitting on me and was not going to let me up until I felt some of the feelings I had been repressing. The pain in my back invited me to cry, so I let it flow. I sobbed and I shook. I wailed and I screamed. I gave my grief, anger and frustration full license to express.

I felt a release, but my back was still out and I began to wonder how I was going to get up to use the bathroom. Life was still there, insisting that I participate even though I couldn’t move. Sometimes the only thing we can do is be where we are and have compassion for ourselves.

For me that meant spending the entire weekend in bed watching Hallmark movies and eating cannabis edibles. I ignored my task master mind that told me I was being lazy and that I could surely find something productive to do while in bed and I SURRENDERED. And guess what? I woke up Monday morning with no back pain at all.

Sometimes what we need in order to cultivate presence in the face of chaos is to just have mercy on ourselves and allow ourselves to just be human. We don’t have to do it all, every day. We just need to show up and meet ourselves where we are. I invite you to do this the next time life throughs you a curveball.

In Peace and Love,

Cara

P.S. There is a new moon in Leo on the 28th. It’s a perfect time to set new intentions for fun, creativity, romance and entertainment.